| Music |
[Jan. 1st, 2005|02:50 am] |
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| |  gloomy | ] |
In my strangely effective, yet tedious music searching method I found a great new album. Arcade Fire's "Funeral." My method starts by checking T14 (elitest buddies message board), to see what everyone is listening to, then I check www.pitchforkmedia.com, then I open up yee old Itunes. I start previewing random bands that are rated high, or suggested to me, and if I like it then it makes the list. The list on my hand, with permenent marker I write it on my hand. Then I keep this cycle going until I have 5-6 albums/groups. After that I set off to Streetlight, when i get there I see what's cheaper, or which is prettier (ooooo colors). So anyways, this album is great, it's the Indie Rock album of the year. Meaning you'll be super cool if you listen to it, in your track jacket and retro kicks. I knew it was going to be a good album when I plopped it into the CD player in my car, and on the way out of the parking garage two ladies yelled at me that I rocked. Indeed, I do rock.
P.S. -- I also picked up the best Bright Eyes CD because I'm pathetic and EMO. |
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| Hi World. |
[Dec. 15th, 2004|08:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lonely | ] |
Will you be my friend? |
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| I'm an island, you're the boat. |
[Apr. 26th, 2004|12:58 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Modest Mouse - Ocean Breathes Salty | ] |
Sometimes, I think I'm slowly falling into madness. So much stuff has happened since I last posted here. First of all my kitty Byrnesy died, about 2 weeks ago. I woke up on my day off and I heard him crying out my window. I assumed, that he was just being lazy and didn't want to jump up. I was wrong, I looked out the window and he was completely lifeless and limp. I get out there, I bring him inside, he's barley breathing, with obvious tire marks, and lots of internal bleeding. I was freaking out, so I call my dad over to drive us to the vet. He most likely died on the way over ther. He was an awesome kitty, and will never be replaced. Spastic and smart! He could open my locked windows, but at the same time, would bolt for no perticular reason, then go flying around a corner and partially run into a wall. So out of utter missing of Byrnesy me and my mom went and got two kittens, Boo is a brown and white tiger, and is 9 months old. Petey is an orange tiger whom is 8 weeks old.
I dropped my C++ class, I was given a project to due for it, and needed so much help it was rediculous, I spent about 8 hours on it and was no where near completed and had no idea after reading the chapters over and over again, and after seeking additional sources of info online. I haven't been understaning much of it anyways, so I dropped it, decided it wasn't for me.
Today I worked an 8 1/2 hour box shift. It blew.
I've also decided to move on from something in my life that I feel has been hindering me much.
I'd type much more but it would be the same, I'm a loser, have no friends, and don't know what I'm doing in life stuff that always finds its way into my posts. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 8th, 2004|12:43 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | pessimistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Johnny Cash - The Man Comes Around | ] |
I saw Dawn of the Dead the other day with Tony. I was quite reluctent, cause me and scary movies don't go along too well. But jesus christ, this movie was absolutly amazingly awesome. The intro video, with the Johnny Cash song, that I'm listening to right now was one of the greatest moments I've seen in a film. It was just so perfectly put togather, and the song seemed like it was written for the movie. RIP J. C.
So I hung out at Mike's last night and had a blast. I got quite intoxicated by a few of these so called blue drinks. Then still managed to kill Mike a few times at Halo. Then I knocked a few things over and went outside and hung out with Alexis and such. Good times.
So yeah, anyone want to go see "spotless mind" tommarrow, or watch Wonderful Days... |
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| How am i loved? |
[Mar. 27th, 2004|12:37 am] |
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| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | a man of constant sorrows | ] |
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Would you ever want to kiss me?
21. Have you ever wanted to ask me out?
22. Are you going to put this on your LJ and see what I say about you? |
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| The night was apparently not a party going night. |
[Mar. 26th, 2004|10:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  guilty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Boyz in the Hood in the backround | ] |
Sorry to everyone whom missed my company at Mike's tonight. I had a lot of stuff that I forgot I had to do this being my only day off this weekend. I realize this isn't helping me get more social and all that smack. But sorry guys, and I'll be there next time! |
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| I'm so lonesome I could cry. |
[Mar. 25th, 2004|01:14 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Outkast - The Whole World - Outkast - The Whole World | ] |
I'm starting to feel the same way as Lexy in regards to our shitty ass job. I'm completely tired of the endless stream of bullshit thats coming from that horrible place. Robin called me while I was asleep from being sick, which I am still getting over. Asking me to work an extra day, I say no, I'm sick, I've got a paper due monday, no! So I go in to check my schedule, how wonderful a door shift and a concessions shift. Thanks a lot, I'm not some new kid I've been working there for over a 14 months. I think that i've gotten past this initial stage of shitty ass door shifts. She waved at me and like looked like she was mad, I had a hard time not giving her shit. But apparently she's leaving and someone else is taking over the impossible job of the schedule. Hopfully it's someone that like's me better. Enough about work, it only pisses me off.
I got a new bed and a new computer chair, that made me very excited, my bed is ever so comfy, with fresh new jerzee sheets... mmmm so good! School has been pretty "school like." In programming I had a marathon 8 hour program that i finall finished last week. Luckily this weeks assignment only took me 3 hours, which I did all by myself (is very proud). Philosophy is really strange, I just had a presentation, where I went from being completely stuck, to getting a great aknowledgement from the teacher that doesn't believe in giving positive opinions to people. Between Philo and C++ I have two classes that are actually forcing me to think which is a good thing. Philosophy actually makes my head hurt at sometimes, but apparently thats the objective of such a class. English is a blast, I'm really enjoying putting togather the Porter Gulch Review. The design and editing process is really coming natural to me, plus I enjoy critisizing other peoples work instead of getting mine criticized. Again David is one of the coolest most helpful english teachers I've ever had, and actually enjoy going to that class. Psych is rather stale, just lots of notes a paper a week and a test every month or so. It has a rhythm which I can really appriciate not having a constantly changing work load.
I really hope my copy of UT2k4 gets here tommarrow. What a fiasco, so theres a special edition and a regular edition. The special edition comes with a headset, on dvd format, and comes with a dvd full of tutorials on modding, and using the map designer. I'm really really interested in learning how to use the modding and map designing tools, so I deeply wanted the SE. I missed the chance to pre-order through EB, so I went to Best Buys website and preordered it, they later send me a confirmation email, then a few days later after every copy in the world seems to have been sold, and its selling for 70-90 on ebay I get an email saying they ran out. What the hell!? So I end up buying a copy from some asshat for 60, which hasn't gotten here, then literally a few hours after the dude ships it, I get an email from Bestbuy, saying that my copy will ship soon. So know I just spent 100 bucks on one game and don't have either copy. Oh well, when they both get here I'll dump one off on ebay and make my money back easy. Also the copy of Battlefield:Vietnam I ordered is not here yet. So I am currently in gamer limbo.
I got some weird ass spider bite on my arm that hurts like fucking mad! It looks like an infected track mark, which means people are probably getting the wrong idea about me. Come on people Cocaine not HEROIN! Get with it.
I thought I'd stop whining about how much my life sucks, and how I'm ready to get out of santa cruz, and how I have no friends since thats all I ever talk about, so I'll spare you all..... for now!
Goodnight, time to pop some nyquil and hit the new bed...mmm |
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| (no subject) |
[Mar. 15th, 2004|10:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | ER in the backround. | ] |
Bold Your Preferences:
1) The Smashing Pumpkins vs. Zwan -- No Freaking contest!
2) 311 vs. Three Days Grace -- I have no idea who three days grace is but anything is better than 311
3) Good Charlotte vs. Simple Plan
4) Sum 41 vs. Blink 182 -- Both are fun bands
5) AFI vs. American Hi-Fi
6) Pennywise vs. Green Day
7) A Perfect Circle vs. Tool
8) Ours vs. Jeff Buckley -- Never heard of em, this ones got a better name
9) Sugar Ray vs. Smash Mouth -- Sugar Ray = Antichrist
10) Story of the Year vs. Lost Prophets -- I like their single
11) The Living End vs. The Clash
12) The White Stripes vs. The Strokes -- Have their own style as opposed to the same tight panted heroin addicts
13) Depeche Mode vs. The Cure -- Both are cool, but The Cure just rocks
14) VNV Nation vs. Apoptygma Berzerk -- Never heard of em, better name
15) Sisters of Mercy vs. Bauhaus -- Never heard of em, better name
16) Placebo vs. HIM -- Havn't heard the other band
17) Weezer vs. The Offspring
18) Nine Inch Nails vs. Filter
19) Stone Temple Pilots vs. David Bowie
20) Stabbing Westward vs. The Deftones |
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| You don't have to read this |
[Mar. 1st, 2004|02:33 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Finch - Stay with me | ] |
Sometimes stuff really gets to me, its not really one big thing but a lot of times i get overburdend by stress. I personally know and have come to the realization that I don't do well with personal stress. In ceratin stressful situations i shine, but when it comes down to being me, i suck.
I have really been feeling alone and isolated latley, I feel like I'm making less and less contact with people at work, and that people are hating me more and more. The two new girls are really really cool, Randa, and Sandra. Sandra and I ushered togather and had a blast. But it just seems like other then the few people that i really like the rest of the people find me obnoxious. Who blames them, I find my self obnoxious some times. I have really come to the realization that my friend count is slowly dwindeling to zero. I've always been really good at meeting new people and finding new friends but for some reason its becoming hard for me. At cabrillo everyone seems to be in their own social groups and see it as a temporary situation, and seem to not like to take time to get to know people. It doesn't help that Tony has been literally chained to the radiator by his girlfriend, I havn't talked to the guy in over a week. I think my problem is that I work and go to school, and don't do anyhting else because i don't know what else to do. Its like highschool all over again. In Highschool I always was the kid that knew everyone and had a buddy in every circle of friends, and made everyone laugh. But for some reason people didn't really hang out with me out of school. Do I have a fatal flaw that I'm missing? Am I an asshole or something? I do admit that I really put on an outside shell to people, that takes a lot of breaking down to get past, and very few people do get past. Maybe I'm just impersonable. Fuck i don't know. In other words I'm ready for a fresh start, I'm really regretting not going straight off to college after school. I want to live the dorm lifestyle, I want to meet new people, I want the whole communial atmosphere. I've outgrown Santa Cruz, simple as that I'm ready to move on and move out. I lost all that weight and I thought that would make me feel better but it didn't I still feel like I'm too big, and goofy. Everyone praises being big, but they don't understand the uncomfortable feelings that come with it. The pain to the knees whenever you do any activity, the fact that you get laughed at cause you don't fit most places. Everyone would always say Jordan, you got it good, you're a funny tall guy girls will love you. But they don't instead they're scared away. The bottom line is that I'm lonely and don't have anyone to share these feelings with so I'm throwing them out there and probably just gonna get made fun of. My life seems to have hit a major speed bump, and I'm having trouble recovering. It's really been feeling like i've been living empty days latley... |
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| Fun Stuff First |
[Mar. 1st, 2004|02:04 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dj Shadow - Building steam with a grain of salt | ] |
I bought myself some posters, here they are, along with my newly cleaned room!
Today was pretty bland, worked all day got some homework done at work, came home and chilled online. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 20th, 2004|02:27 am] |
jimbojonesjr
Siamese Fighting Fish
Agility
6 | | | Strength
5 | | | Stamina
8 |
| Battle Rating
19Origins
jimbojonesjr was purchased at a local Pet Store |  |
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I kicked Rhiannon's ASS! |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 19th, 2004|08:52 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
I got up in time for my 9:30 class today... FOR THE FIRST TIME! hot damn boys and girls! |
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| Emily's thingy |
[Feb. 16th, 2004|03:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | WBEZ Chicago - This American Life | ] |
Things i like
-Waking up feeling refreshed at 10am
-Freshly made warm beds
-Pizza and a Sporting Event
-A full tank of Gas
-Consecutive days off
-Great Movies
-Cool People
-Good Music
-Rocking out to Styx
-The feeling after a fresh shower
-New Posters from work
-No Homework!
-The feeling after working out
-Finding money or other cool stuff while ushering
Things I hate
-Jesus Freaks
-Asshole Toursists
-Trends that make my stuff cool, i just wanna be a nerd k,thanks.
-The Yankees
-The Red Sox
-Rough Sheets
-Mornings
-People that don't know what they want (but who does)
-Price of DVDS/CDs
-My hands being dry
-Lack of Social Contact
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Attractive Physical Features
-Eyes, any color!
-Short Hair (I dunno what it is)
-Dresses
-Those tight pants with stripes
-Dyed Hair
-Lip Rings
-Eyebrow Rings
-Tongue Rings
-Small amounts of jewelry, one ring, some nice earrings etc. No Fucking Ghetto Bling.
-Unique dressed girls
-Outgoing personalities
-Silent Mysterious personalities
-Deeper Sexier Voices
-Slender Fingers
-Soft Skin
-Smiles
-Small/No Makeup
NOT Attractive Physical Features
-Tons of Makeup
-Mesh Hats
-Gangsta' Chicks
-Cosplayers!! when they shouldnt!
-Showing too much skin when you shouldn't be
-Fake Tittes |
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| I'm insane! |
[Feb. 3rd, 2004|03:27 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
Last night, this morning I had a very disturbing dream, if anyone can tell me how crazy I am or choose to shoot me with tranqulizers please feel free. So I can't remember the beginning of the dream other then it included many other painful horrible deaths. But the most vivid part I remember was the death of a guy, he was flowing down an endless river loop of worms, and these worms for some reason ate flesh. So I continually watch this guy drift down this river with kind of a sirene look on his face, he doesn't look like he's being eaten but rather just rotting, but still alive. Soon a few people arrive to see the guy off I guess and as he dies, falls apart, I remember this vivid look of a kind of mutated rotten face seperating from the rest of the body, then the rest of the body falling apart and then the people jumping in.
So whats the verdict?
Send me to the nut house? |
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| Two days off in a row! Hot Damn!! |
[Jan. 14th, 2004|02:28 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Aqua - Be a man (I'm too hardcore for you) | ] |
Guess what, I don't have to work tommarrow, how cool is that?! Wait, no, yeah, wait, it gets better, I don't have to work the day after either. Score one for the good guys. Happy days. Well today was fairly uneventful like the majority of days of my wonderful existance. I woke up at the bright and painfully early time of about 1:30. Walk around, watch some tv, check the news etc. Then Josh comes over we play some espn watch some season 1 of 24, which absolutly fucking owns. Went to work worked 6-cl concessions shift no big deal. Hung out with other Josh closing talked warcraft. Then got kicked in the shin by another female (sigh). I guess "Filthy Loins" isn't a nice nickname, then Alexis talked about my penis infront of about half a dozen female co-workers, and i left, thanks hun... :/ So now I'm here typing this wonderful journal entry for a whole 5 or 6 people to read. Tommarrow I might go see either, Big Fish or 21 Grams, anyone interested? For now i leave you with Canada's gift to men everywhere....
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| I swear i'm still here. |
[Jan. 8th, 2004|02:58 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | lethargic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Oingo Boingo - Don't fear the reaper | ] |
I realized I havn't updated this thing in well over a long ass time. So I decided I would. Today I hung out with Julie and Jean, since Jean was in town, we went to see Peter Pan which was absolutely atrocious, even though Emily liked it, but that girls just messed up. I don't have to work tomarrow, maybe i'll clean my room, it oh so needs it. I have a 50 dollar gift certificate to Streetlight but i'm not exactly sure what i should get. I'm ready for a bigger room, there's not enough room for me to situate all of my furniture, and I want to get a home theatre system in here yet, it would be pointless because noise levels are always to high already blah. I want to live in a house where i get to live in the garage, and be grungy, and be cold. I'm still sick, being sick sucks, but atleast I have my orange friend dayquil. I thought dayquil tastes bad, but the safeway select stuff, feels like dying inside my mouth. I think i've gone through an entire box of Kleenex in like 2 days, that pretty skilled, and a gross thought at the sheer volume of snot that that would be. I need a new bed really bad, mine is horridly uncomfortable, it used to be sooo comfy, but now its just like eww... I also realized i sad fact today, with Alexis's promotion i'm the longest working floorstaff (except for people that have left and comeback, and people that work the same shift, Stan, Fabian etc.). How pathetic is that :(. I don't want to be a concessions cheif, I'd rather die, or be an usher chief. I'm listening to an Oingo Boingo song, and singing along. That is all. |
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